starfishy

 Panting. In. Out. In. Out. Short, shallow. Ragged breaths. Cold steel pressed against the side of her face. Peering around the corner, she held the weapon closely. Eyes narrowing, she pushed herself up off of her knees. Creeping, slowly. Suddenly a series of shots are rounded off into the air. Count them. One… Two… Three… Four… A gargling sound, a loud thump. A body drops to the floor, but in the darkness its impossible to tell whom it belonged too. Two more. She cursed, silently. There’s no telling who heard them, and she supposed it was safe to say her cover had been blown. The siren began to throb. She

Natalia pushed a lock of ebony hair behind her right ear as she brushed through the crowd, fuming. She was surrounded by morons, she always was of course, there were few that she even cared to acknowledge. You would think OAC's would filter out the halfwits, but thanks to rich parents and sports scholarships, no such luck. Again, another year she was stuck with the peers she loved to hate, and loved more to make her opinions known. The grade nines were the worst, she knew that well. No respect for the older grades, they insisted on congregating in the halls in packs, making it difficult for her to get to her locker, let alone her classes. Th

Sight. I see at last, I peer into your soul and I -know- It aches, perverting my mirth with your negative emotions I can finally understand, That perhaps I don't matter The world does not revolve around me Its shocking, jarring my soul I enjoy it though. It reassures me that maybe, You don't do the things you do to hurt me You do them to be you. I see, and it's glorious, divine, uplifting. I come together I'm happy. My eyes soak in the sights. Carefree, and I know, at last! Hope, Happiness.. Faith. Not the false joy I felt in my tiny world Violet, the soft, spiritual glow like a warming blanket, it envelope

No one understands No one sees No one knows What I am I wear my mask I hide myself I am not what I seem Can you see me? I look beautiful I look angelic I am not I am ugly That is my nature Why don't you try To see me? Why do you trust your eyes? I protect myself from you You scare me You don't know me Please try to see I may seem strong I may seem wise I'm not Take off my mask and see me I can not do it I need help Aid me please. See past the mask I like to pretend That nothing scares me That I am brave And courageous I am asking you To trust your heart Not your head Please

And it starts again. It always does. They come back, time and time again. Delighting in my melancholy... That gripping, compelling misery, holding me so fast in a death grip of reality That even my words cannot begin to describe Perhaps because there aren't the words To show... The turmoil writhing within my heart Fighting them away, this can't be right, I'm not normal... A tightening in my chest, my twisting gut. Emotions struggling to be free. Alien to me, I don't understand them Why are they plaguing me? Why me? What have I done to deserve Such treatment...? I can't think anymore.. The painful, staggering

You cannot loose hope, my heart My heart! You have the gift The passion to fight Though tension is killing There are hearts unwilling You must... You must... Slump. Slump.. Ahead! The rage is gripping And abuse can be crushing Forcing you into submission... Don't loose hope, I know you'll go on! To face the day with a fever! Infecting, Compelling your peers To join with your cause, fight the good fight Carry on! Break the curse, My soul! Fly above opression Soar the open skies and perhaps it will not last forver, but you have tasted freedom You know its gift, its glory are you willing to pay the